just venting

I'm pretty emotional right now and I dislike it so much. I'm not much of a talker. I don't like sharing any sort of feelings with my boyfriend or anyone as a matter of fact. I don't know how I feel right now. My boyfriend tries to do a lot for me and I'm super thankful, but I feel like the relationship will end sooner or later because I have different dreams and goals. I'm not one to give it up or a guy. I'm happy being with him but as time moves forward I'm slowly starting to maybe want him to be part of my life longer than I thought and feeling like I should push my dreams a little back. I'm super frustrated about feeling this way.