He's snatched my dream of having a child!

I'm devastated, I saw a text message my boyfriend sent to a female he used to sleep with arranging to meet her. So I called her and she confirmed he was planning to meet her but he deny deny denys it, but I know what I saw. I'm 38 he is 31 we have been together a year friends for 2 and a half years and we were TTC for 3 months and now I feel like I won't find another man in time to have a child. I feel robbed I'm heart broken and I guess I just have to accept its to late. I finished with him on the spot. I know my worth even if he has made me feel worthless. I just have zero faith in men now. How could he do this knowing we are planning to have a family. I know finishing with him was the right thing to do but it hurts so much I feel lost and empty. I kicked him out and now all I can think is he's with her which is twisting my insides. I might be pregnant I will know in 2 weeks if I am I'll do it alone and if I'm not then its gods way and I just have to accept it. I feel lost.