I dont know why im on here....

I don't know why I'm even on here. I will never have the happiness y'all have. All these post of your pregnancy test makes me feel depressed, hurt,lost, less then a woman , and totally pissed off. I want so much to go down this line and say congratulations on the pregnancy but I can't.

I'm a woman that has been a childless mother for years and I can't shake the feeling of wanting what most of you all have. I want that joy of saying "guess what family I'm having my 1st child". I wan to blow the mind of my twin sister and have her wait on her baby to get here like I did when she had my baby.

But I know its just me having wishful thinking. I know I should have more hole about it but I don't I have lost hope in ever having a child. I'm wrong I know but hope was all I had when I got that visit from aunt flo. I'm so sad