Can you guys help what are positive affirmations or biblical applications with verses or something I can do?

I'm really hurting. My boyfriend hurt me and I stayed throughout everything I thought it would get better. We broke up. It was devastating some days my heart hurts so much because it took me getting pregnant to realize he isn't a good man. Hitting, doing drugs. It sucks I wake up and think what would it have been if I had a self-esteem and loved myself enough to date a guy who really treated me well. What if I waited until the right man and I'd have that husband who smiles and rubs lotion on my stomach the one who gets excited for ultrasound visits and the one who is proud of us both.

I'm pregnant and am doing everything with all my strength. I'm overcoming hurdles and this pregnancy really changed me.

I have this court case going on and it's his word against mine. I'm very pregnant our child is due very soon. So I feel like crying I am going to testify and it's hard telling everyone what a guy did to you. It's hard when you're a victim and he says it didn't happen. It's hard because I want to move forward but I have this court hearing and I don't know how to keep it all together. I'm happy about the baby I just want to forget what he did. I cried allot I wanted the family together. I wanted him here to be here. I thought long and hard and pregnancy a child doesn't make someone grow up. Doesn't change there character unless they want to change. A drunk abusive guy isn't suddenly going to not drink alcohol before he drives and remember to put the car seat buckle up the baby. So there's so much concern you can wish but it's not your fault they treat you bad. I want to be a good role model. It's hard there's so many wonderful people who deserve someone who treats them so good.