I was in my study group last night and I was of course talking about how badly I want marriage and babies soon and one of the girls said "how come you don't just tell guys what you want and are looking for off the bat?" I mean I always figured it was pretty weird and crazy to tell a guy on a first date that you want marriage and babies soon but now I feel like I'm at an age were maybe it's ok like I'm 25 guys who are 25 and up should want that too, if they are good and responsible. At the same time I went out with a guy who was very very into moving as quickly as possible and it was weird. It was weird because he was smothering too which was annoying.

I'm freaking out a little because I know what I want but I don't too I know I want marriage and babies super soon but I'm also picky and desperate it's just a combination of all bad lol. But I mean I can be upfront with guys right or would that be scary and weird? If I don't tell them what I want then they won't hurry to do it though. I don't have years to waste. I'm 25 and if it hasn't happened already then... I mean come on.