Had unprotected sex in my last 5 year relationship regularly...and nothing ever happened. I knew something was wrong.

Have been with my now, husband for 4 years. Went into the hospital with cramping last April (2015). Surprise! 5 weeks pregnant. We were so happy. We had been having sex every other day for 3 years before this and I had lost all hope.

Then I was 15 weeks and went in for an ultrasound. No heartbeat. I had a "missed miscarriage". My baby died at 9 weeks but I continued to carry it. We were devastated. They did the d&c the next morning. I haven't been the same since but somehow, I remained hopeful. I thought, women are more fertile after a miscarriage so hold into that and push forward. It has been 10 months...nothing. I have EXTREMELY irregular periods. They have no order or pattern. My last one as of now was October 13, 2015. I don't have the means to find out why (doctor) and it drives me crazy daily. I can't continue to watch all the women around me succeed in something that I can't seem to do (not saying I'm the only one) I'm a broken down car, it seems. Any advice, feedback, ideas, encouragement, similar stories, success stories, etc would be so greatly appreciated. I have never been able to talk to anyone about it.

Lots of love to you all ♡

P.s. I'm in my 20s