Ok so im new to all this . I had a miscarriage back in November 2015 and ever since ive been trying to furfill that feeling of knowing your gona be a mother all over again . I have been tracking my periods and ovulating since I was 16 ! Im always on time never been late only when ive been pregnant ! So 2 and a half weeks ago i took a test it was the faintest line but it was there and it was blue . Im now late i took another test earlier and its negative also all day ive  had clear snotty like discharge and it's very stringy the kind u would have if you was ovulating . Also back in July 2015 i did have a abortion something i wud never do i had my daughter at 16 so why i did that is beyond me it's like my mind was in a bubble and me n boyfriend wS always argueing enway i keep stressing my miscarriage in November was karma for the horrible thing i done and now I can't consieve because im a horrible person why me !!