Social anxiety?

I think I have this... I'm 26 and cannot talk to people at all. Large groups would probably kill me, literally. I would pass out from the stress haha. I have 0 friends. I have a BF and a son but he kind of understands my situation. The only people I can actually talk to and be myself is my son, who is only 2 haha, my dad and my BF. Anyone else I am just quiet and really don't say much. I feel like such a weirdo. And I feel like I'm wasting my life by not being ME. Would a dr give me meds for this? Is it hard to get meds? I don't want therapy cause I will not and could not bring myself to go.