Unfortunately I do not get to hold my baby in my arms as I dreamed

Unfortunately I did not have a healthy pregnancy but I did have a healthy baby but do not get to hold my baby in my arms. After 4 months of carrying him inside my uterus my baby boy couldn't make it to his due date which was July 23rd 2016. I miscarried at 17 weeks and it's the most devastating, sad, confusing and just emotional part in my life. I had my baby at home by myself and my 21 month old daughter watched the whole thing. My baby boy came right out so unexpectedly and I'm traumatized. I wish this app had a section where mothers who suffered from miscarriage can click on and have some information or be able to talk to someone about how to deal with a miscarriage and hear their stories. It makes me sad to have to delete this app because I can't check to see my baby's progress anymore :( I'm going to miss it but when I have another baby one day I will be back on here. Thank you for the few months you were here to help me with info.