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Deyona • Fri, Feb 26

Do you think I should give this letter to my boyfriend so he will finally understand how I feel?!

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I wish I could take back all of the always forever forever's, and the promises that I would never leave. I wish I never told you that I wouldn't be the one to end our relationship.

I wish I never promised to never break any promises. I'm so lost and so confused, I love you so much but don't know what to do.

I think the last time was what finally made me crack, now I wish you would of paid more attention to the signs of me pulling away..

I wish you never made me feel like your computer and friends online were more important then me. I wish you never made me feel like I wasn't enough. I wish you never cheated, making it almost impossible to trust and love you the same. I wish that every time you hurt me a piece of me didn't break and change on the inside.

I have so much love for you, how could I not. You have been there for me through almost every up and down life has thrown at me.

I will never forget the amazing things you have done for me and the wonderful man you are. But im broken because you broke me, you really did.

When your games and friends felt like priority over me while I was caring your child, and even after. I wish I didn't try so hard at making you happy after you had told me that our relationship was all about me. I got so caught up in making it about you that I was afraid to voice how I felt in fear of loosing you and now you're losing me.

Maybe then i wouldn't feel like there isn't any of me left to give. When I fell in love with you, my whole world revolved around you. Never did you fail at making me laugh and smile, hearing you call me cute pet names made my heart flutter like it was going to jump out of my chest.

Now it feels forced, when you try to be cute and sweet, part of me doesn't believe it and part of me doesn't care..

when things got bad pieces of me were falling off and I don't believe you even noticed. I'm so mad because I sat down and told you that your consequences where all your own along with your choices.

Still you sat on your computer and ignored me, nothing changed until it was too late because you weren't paying attention....

and I'm sorry, because now you are trying so hard to be everything that I need.

You give me time, attention and love but now its too late. I love you I really do but its no longer the same, No longer is it a strong burning flame. Just embers in a pile of ash, and I'm so sorry because I really wanted this to last.

I wanted to grow old with you and laugh with you, I wanted our grandchildren to visit and say, "Wow grandma and grandpa love each other so much" I wanted our daughter to wake up to both of us in the morning. I wanted to wake up next to you for the rest of forever, and now I don't even know if there will be one.

And im so sorry because im breaking so many promises, but im empty inside. I feel alone, even when you're close. I just don't know what to do....im so confused, i love you but part of me feels like we can never be the same. and im just so sorry that I couldn't keep loving you like you love me.

I'm sorry that i feel empty. I'm sorry that im broken. I will always love and have love for you. But it's just not the same.....I'm so sorry.

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