Just need to vent

I can't effing stand my mother! !! This is nothing new, it's just that being pregnant is really bringing up all my issues to the surface and I can't even deal with it right now. It angers me that she is so excited and happy to be a grandma. I feel like a horrible person even saying these things but it's how I feel. She was never there for me when I was younger, especially as a teenager. ..she had her issues with depression and always acted like she resented me until my late 20's, I'm 30 now.... it was always like walking on eggshells with her, she said horrible mean things and was just generally not nice. Now, she wants to take credit for her "successful, beautiful daughter " when she had nothing to do with it. She has no insight into what she did or put me through, if I brought it up she probably lose it. Ugh, I'm so annoyed and upset right now. All I know is, I need to be a better mother to my kid, and hopefully she's going to be a better grandmother than she was a mother.