Need encouragement.

🌈🌌Amber🌌🌈 • Trying for my 4th his 1st! Lookin for my rainbow baby! I have one blocked tube and the other is partially blocked. Trying to conceive as naturally as I can. Much love 💖 and Baby dust 🍼🌌 to all!
The 2ww is killing me. I want to test. I am going crazy with all my symptoms. I don't want to talk about it with SO because I don't want to disjoint him if I'm not. Still 5 days before I can test. Af not due until around the 7th. Ahhhhhhhhhggggggg!