So I'm about 4 days late today. My boyfriend had been making pregnancy jokes and even took me out yesterday for all the foods I had said I was craving lately. Last night we both agreed for me to take a pregnancy test. I didn't want to know as I had a loss 5 months ago. I didn't want to take a test because I knew I would be heart broken if negative and I didn't want to see his reaction if it was a good reaction to a negative test. We had not been trying and not exactly preventing either. He assured me that he would be happy if it was positive and if negative, we will try when the time is right. I took it. It was negative. I cried. Again, we weren't trying but just having the though of it enough to have to take a test had me hopeful. He Held me for about 15 minutes of me crying. He said it wasn't meant to be this time around. I feel like I've had a second loss even though I wasn't even pregnant. Does anyone ever fully recover from a loss? He assured me that it'll one day happen and that he would like to actually start trying in 5 months or so because I'm in my cousins wedding in October and I can't show in the dress she has chosen otherwise I won't be able to where I. I love how supportive he is and him telling me we can actually start trying then is a major step. Will me getting pregnant again help me get over my loss? I feel as though I'll be terrified to lose the next one too.