I hate my family...

Vent:

I live with my boyfriend and he's going to visit his family soon in a different country and I have to go visit my family because he doesn't want me to stay here alone. I can't believe I'm actually feeling this but to be honest I don't feel any love for my family I actually feel some hatred. Is this normal?... Idk why I think because I've never been close to them before and also because I've always been like the black sheep outsider. I'm going to have to stay 1 whole month this June and maybe even for 1 week by the end of this month for the spring break because I don't have enough money to go to NY with my boyfriend.. Seriously I just need someone to tell me if this is normal... I hate my family💔 they're all so strange and I get so jealous how my boyfriend came from such a well developed functional family. He has that huge family while I was raised by one mom grandma and I have my older brother and sister who are both still living at home and they have children and do drugs. My boyfriends family is rich, mom and dad, all of them are educated well mannered the perfect picture.. Idk what to do I'm seriously so broken and jealous.. He's like my only friend and he has so many friends. Can anyone relate or offer some advice...