Still feel awkward

I've never like, given him oral but that's just because I don't want to but any mention of it makes me awkward, as does like dirty talk and stuff. I only recently got the courage to go on top (about 5 months in, we're at 6 now) and the other night we were doing it at my parents and I said my bed was too loud and he like suggested the floor or standing up and the thought scared me so much I couldn't move off the bed or look at him and I just cried. Idk I feel like I'm being silly.