I give up ughhhh ttc #3 for almost 2 years

I give up im so tired of negative after negative and dissipointment after dissipointment I know theres people out there trying for #1 and getting nowhere or trying for 2nd 3rd and so on I give u all credit for concieve when it took many year I just have bad baby fever have had it for a long time and it just bothers me so much I try to forget and just let it happen like when I gave up with my 2nd and boom I was pregnant and didnt even know its just been so rough i been wanting a lil girl forever and no luck I have to boy but would love a lil princess i know u cant choose what u get but I been praying I get a daughter finally it means so much to me since I lost my mom at 9 4 days after my 9th birthday but at this point I just want a baby I still want my lil princess but yea im having no luck at all period I hope it wont be this hard to concieve #4 if we ever get #3