We found out yesterday that we are having a boy. We have a son already and last year we lost our beautiful daughter at 36 weeks. Since learning were having another boy I have been totally devastated. I feel like I've lost my hopes for the future all over again and I'm heartbroken. I love this child and I feel guilty for my disappointment. Has anyone gone through this? Am I as horrible as I feel. I've cried 3xs today, it's so difficult.