I don't show it, because I hate for people to see me down, but lately I've been going through somethings. I feel like I have so much weight on my back. But I'm really hurting. Everyday there's more and more problems added to my life. But because I hate to allow people to see me fall apart. I hold so much shit in ! I wanna scream, & break some glass. Then I wanna cry. Cry out all of my hurt, my anger, every problem in my life. I got so many things going on right now that while I was in the kitchen cooking I dropped to my knees in front of everyone in my house and started praying for better days. I usually pray to God in private but because of how messed up things are I had to let everyone know.