3 Weeks After MC and...

It's been 3 weeks after I miscarried and I feel like I'm losing my freaking mind. My emotions are all over the place. We are not in the best financial situation and being pregnant wasn't ideal, but if nothing else life has taught me that there is never a perfect time to have a baby. When I got pregnant my husband and I were actually talking about not having anymore children so I took this pregnancy as proof that we should still have 1 more. Then we lost him, and now I'm so confused. Some days I just want to get pregnant again right away and others I think it'd be irresponsible. I'm 34 and I just don't want to be pregnant at 35. I know it seems silly but it's just how I feel. My husband wants to wait until August IF we want to try again and I just keep thinking the clock is ticking. On top of everything my emotions are everywhere. I feel like I can't concentrate and keep making mistakes verbally and just everyday things like bills. I paid a bill twice and now we're over drafted and I feel so incompetent. To top it off my libido is extremely, inappropriately, and over the top. (I know tmi) I feel guilty for feeling this way so soon after my baby passed. Anyone else dealing with this? I just want to feel normal again. Sorry for the rant thanks for reading.