Waiting to confirm

Meg • 🍍
This will be #4. Four in less exactly one year of ttc.
I'm trying to stay hopeful. I've been bleeding for days (spotting since 3/22, red on 3/23 for less than an hour, red today 3/28) and I had some significant cramping that has since passed.
I tested Saturday because I felt off despite the pseudo-period. Now I'm waiting on day 1 of bloodwork to see if there's even a chance that the pregnancy is still viable but really just to confirm the inevitable. 
It doesn't get any easier.