Please help

Okay, so this is something I've struggled with ever since my boobs have grown out. And I'm super self conscious about it and absolutely hate myself for this. My boobs... Are disgusting. I have no nipples... Like there's just nothing there. The spots where I should have nipples look weird. Idk ... I just really wished I had normal boobs. I've read online but can never find anything about my problem specifically. Mostly talks about inverted nipples and what not. So my question is... AM I NORMAL? Or do I have some serious health issue that I should bring this up to my doctor? (Which I would prefer not to... Because he's male and I'm so embarrassed). I've only had sex with one guy and he told me all boobs are different. And I agree. But mine... Are not anywhere near like anyone else....  Please help. I apologize if anyone is grossed out by this. I just need to get this out because I've tried to talk about it before to a friend and she kinda just brushed me off.