Don't you wish you could take back a mistake you made years before😫

Because I know I do, I had went to sleep that night almost 4 years ago. U know when you stay up WAYYY pass your bed time and your just one Facebook or social media minding your own business? I was that girl but out of nowhere I got a inbox on Facebook (now little kids ages 14 on down should not have a Facebook) and it was 5 o'clock in the morning and this boy asked what was I doing blah blah blah you know the usual and then he says do u wanna "Chill" now at that time I DID NOT know that when a boy asked you do you want to chill at 5 in the morning his meaning sex wise. Of course I wouldn't know because I was 13 the ONLY thing that was on my mind was my iPod and bratz dolls and what screen saver should I put next. I said yes because I was a very adventurous girl and I didn't think nothing of it of course. So we walk to this porch (it wasn't even his porch) it was his friend porch or w.e and we talk and laugh or w.e and he then says let's go to my house and I'm like umm okay (Still not thinking nothing of it well I started to get really nervous) we are then sitting in a basement yes a basement. And there's a bed so I'm looking like Ohhh okay what's going on. Then I start to think what if he bring others down here to rape me. He started kissing on me and i WASNT enjoying it at all I was highly uncomfortable. At that point when he went for my lil vagina lol I went into shock like really I went into shock I wasn't moving at all I was stiff and I blacked out when he got on stop of me in my mind I was saying "No" but I was so in shock I couldn't say it I wanted to soooo bad but I couldn't😢 when he was done doing what he was doing I left out of there sooo fast and I was trying to avoid him (he lived in my neighborhood where I walk with my friends) and after that day I've been wanting sex. Me and the boy who basically took my virginty talked for about 2 years nothing serious. Till I find out that he gave me a STD (chlamydia)😭 i was 14 when I found out so I've been living with a STD for a yea without having it treated when I found out I also blacked out on the instructions on what to do to get the medicine for it. The lady who told me said to go to my pharmacies where they were holding my medicine😫 I COMPLETELY didn't get that part😔 so I believe another 2 years later my doctor told me that I had and I didn't black out this time and she told me to go to my pharmacies and took it Thank god but to think I could've got it cured 2 years ago if I didn't black out now I don't black out lol but I ALWAYS wonder ALWAYS will I ever be able to have a baby because I learned that chylamydia can mess up your tubes... I live with that mistake of not taking my ass to bed like I was supposed to. And the crazy part is the boy who took my virginty had a baby girl and I'm sitting wondering if my future husband and I will be able to have a family (I no longer talk to him) but I'm so destroyed inside