I'm Scared to Take the Pregnancy Test

Je
I've been dealing with infertility. But I think I might be pregnant! But I'm terrified to take the test because if it comes up negative, I'll be so upset. But I have all the symptoms and I even had what I believe was implantation bleeding.
I've been pregnant once before (had a miscarriage at 15 weeks) and had implantation bleeding then too. And I've had almost all the same symptoms.
So I think I might be pregnant but I'm just scared to test because what if I'm not? I don't wanna see another negative response... :(