Cloth diapers- Pity Party

I diapered 5 babies with cloth, most of which I made myself. Also made all the wipes. I had three in diapers at one point so financially it was necessary and worth it. This time around though, I gotta be honest. I don't want to do it again. I just don't know if I have it in me. I'm 40 and having a total surprise baby. We absolutely thought we were done and are starting completely from scratch with this baby. I know I don't have to make them but I homeschool my 5 kids, 3 of whom are teenagers, and already we do 14 loads of laundry a week. I can't afford a laundry service and I definitely can't afford disposables. Especially bc I know I wouldn't be comfortable buying anything but the expensive all natural ones. Waaaaa! I just don't wanna! (Stomps feet ;-)