Painful days :(

January • 👦🏼🧒🏻+👶🏼🎀 on the way!
I've been having a few hard weeks, some very painful and sad days. I don't know if it is because we are finally ready to try again this month .. But something about the past week or two.. I've been sadder than I was. It was getting better and better and now lately it's just more painful. 
I miss you, little girl. We would have been 30 weeks in now. Why did I have to let you go at 18? I love you so much. I wish you were here with me, little love.