I'm terrified of having sex. My parents are super religious and I've been raised being told that sex before marriage is the worst and most disrespectful thing a girl can do. My boyfriend and I have been dating since September and has been extremely respectful of my fears and has tried to help me get over some of them. It doesn't help that my previous boyfriend was very emotionally abusive. I'm terrified it's going to hurt and I'm scared I'm going to bleed and getting pregnant out of wedlock is a sure fire way to get kicked out and disowned. My periods are also never on time and I fear if I told my mom that I need to go to the gyno she would think it's just because I want birth control. This is a really hard situation for me because I want to have sex with my boyfriend but my fear of sex prevents me from taking things too far. My self control is seriously the worst. Can anyone offer any encouragement? I never post on these sort of things. I'm a really self conscious person so posting something personal like this anonymous or not is a bit scary for me. Thanks in advance.