loose vagina?

So at a young age I started testing the waters when it came to masturbation, I started masturbating when I was in 8th grade, and started doing it everyday with the end of a brush. I'm now a senior in high school, and feel disgusting because I never got to lose my virginity the real way and now just feel too self conscious to have sex because I feel like I'm loose, and gross. Am I the only one?