This is rather long..04/17/14 i had a stillborn due to turners syndrome 01/16/16 i had my rainbow baby

And of course having my baby healthy and with me this time is amazing i love her more than anything she was exclusively breastfed which is amazing i loved the bond we had however March 13th i went to the hospital because i couldnt keep anything down and need to get rehydrated for feeding my baby i was also in a lot of pain found out it was gallstones and gallbladder needed taken out so i was hospitalized march 14th they did a procedure to get the stones out of my duct so then march 15th first thing in the morning was going to get my gallbladder taken out after waking up i was told that they couldnt take my gallbladder out or i wouldve bled out bc i had hematoma on my liver (later found out it was from first procedure) so i was lifeflighted to PA trauma center was there for 10 days of course i missed my baby the whole time was so depressed i had to be away from her and with all that i had to stop breastfeeding as well ever since being home im just so sad i feel so empty and depressed and i want another baby already i dont know why i dont if it from the nearly 2 weeks i was away and missed stuff or bc i had to stop breastfeeding or what but i just cant shake it and another baby is out of question financially im not working right now bc im still healing plus still working on getting our own place not to mention the bank came and got my car and repossessed it while i was in the hospital also my finance says he doesnt want another baby for a couple of years sorry this is so long