💔💔 I've gained an angel 💔

I'm so full of hate 😒 

Im devastated , probably even depressed . 

Going thru contractions all night long to expel my happiness away. 

I try to stay strong bcuz I have an angel that I have to watch over and one that's watching over me . But I can't help but wanting to have the second angel in my arms instead of in my dreams and in my heart. It's a pain that I can't describe . 

I close my eyes and see a baby face looking at me smiling , big brown eyes and the perfect smile ! 

I hear her laugh, I hear her cry, and even though you weren't w/ me for a longer period of time even tho I didn't even get to hear your heartbeat , I know I carried you long enough to love you more than my life . 

Things happen for a reason , I still don't understand why and I never will ,

But I'll meet you someday and I'll get to hold you, kiss you, change you, feed you, and do all the things I wished I could've done in life . 

And not have wait so long to be with you. 

💔🚼