Some may think I'm crazy.. Kinda long

Me and my Boyfriend have been fighting a lot the past year and a half and he kept talking to his ex the first year of our relationship and today I told him that I think he takes a lot of his anger out on me because he's depressed with his life and how it's turned out. I gave him permission to talk to his Ex and see if things work out because I'm due with our son in less than 2 months and I don't want him to decide that he wants to see other people once the baby gets here. I would rather him do it while I'm still pregnant so it's not a big mess once I have the baby. I honest to god didn't think he would even consider it cause he hasn't talked to her in over a year but HE CONSIDERED IT! I don't even know what to think and I know it was my idea but it still hurts cause I know I wanna b with him and I thought I was the only one he wanted but I guess I was wrong.. Please no negative comments