Moving blues

So, I'm moving July 11th with my family (I'm a middle schooler and live with my parents and brother). I have the best friends I've ever asked for (bffs since 4th grade), a crush (I know silly school crushes), I know almost everyone at the school and have found that I love it there. School ends in 2 months, and while everyone else is happy for summer break, I'm begging for it to never end. I'll never see anyone there ever again, which is what makes me the most sad. I'm familiar with this place and it's students, and everyone there is nice to me. I honestly don't want to move, with all my heart. At least not until high school (7th grader here). My parents said if we didn't want to move then we wouldn't move, but they've already bought supplies, called apartment places, and are planning on buying a trailer soon and telling the family (grandma, aunts, ect) this weekend. I'd feel terrible if I disappointed them with my stupid feelings, they want to move, my brother wants to move, I just have to ruin it. I feel like my family there (across the country, cousins and others live there) thinks I'm a greedy brat, other than one of my cousins. I'll be honest here, I'm tearing up writing this. I probably seem to be overreacting or something, but I'm having a hard time dealing with this. No one knows expect my best friends that I don't want to move. They don't understand why I don't just tell them. My family is not open about feelings, my dad once started screaming at me ("NO! WHAT THE DUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!") because I accidentally forgot to put away my plate and cream cheese from the bagel I had for lunch. I was in my room sobbing afterwards while my mom came in to apologize for him, while laughing at me crying, and pretty much made a speech about me being ungrateful, which made me feel 10x worse. How am I supposed to deal with all of this? I'm having a really hard time here... I'd appreciate any advice. Thanks.