I've been stuck in the "birth stories " category..

And some of the stories are really scary. I'm having so much anxiety. And been in pre labor since last Thursday. Contractions are strong but nothing with my cervix. I was in l&d all night Saturday with contractions off the chart and obvious pain. And the hospital had a student check me.. student said she couldn't find my cervix! Seriously felt like she was stabbing me and then I felt the baby move from real low to my rib cage... after that the nurse had to check! Ugh needless to say she jammed her hand til she couldn't go no further. Hurt me so bad I was bawling and couldn't even look at them... I'm so scared. I actually am thinking I won't want another baby cause I feel so traumatized. My due date is may 10th. So I'm gonna have to do this soon. Any encouraging words? ):