Feel like I'm the only one TTC.

I am a believer of science. I understand how the science of conception works and I use this knowledge to time intercourse because you cannot get pregnant if you don't have sperm to meet that egg! But because of this I am the only one that gives a shit. I mean seriously my husband only wants sex when he wants it fertile week be damned! All I can think is F*** this guy so much! What does he think I can immaculately conceive his child without having sex? Seriously! I feel like the only one who tries! You women know what I'm talking about, you don't feel sexy but you put on the show to get things going cycle after cycle. I hate this entire process because I am the one that feels like a failure, I am the one crying every cycle when I get a BFN not him. It's sad how shitty this is for me while he just lives life like it doesn't even factor in. I want this biological baby FOR HIM and for his Catholic family! I want to adopt older kids in a few years after I go back to school but no I have to give him and his family biological kids even though I'm chronically ill and the only one actually TRYING to get pregnant. How do I tell him how shitty he makes me feel, how alone he makes me feel in this? I am the one that has to use drugs to induce egg production and what else those hormones do. He doesn't have to change ANYTHING, he won't even stop drinking soda! I eat so healthy, I don't even get chocolate anymore! I have to do this, that and the other thing. I pee on sticks, I cry, I am the hormonal wreck each month! My chronic pain is 100 times worse off birth control and I've been off for like 2 years trying to just get pregnant. I just don't know if I have anything left. We just got to the fertility clinic and I want to quit because I feel like I do everything all the time. I feel like I'm his mother. I really hate TTC.