Venting...

When this baby is born my son will be a year and 3 months. And im so scared and upset that he wont be able to stay in the hospital without me, I have no one to take care of him. I need him, and he needs me. Im still breastfeeding and he won't go to sleep without it, itll be traumatic for him to not be with me. And for me as well... No one can watch him.. Im just starting to resent the fact that im having another baby because of it, and that makes me feel like crap too... Im so upset about all of this idk what to do... I cant afford a home birth where I live because insurance wont cover it... Im out of options...