Help.... im so frusterated

So i was diagnosed with genital and oral herpes in February, my husband (then boyfriend) gave it to me without knowing. It was a horrible first outbreak... well in March we conceived a child and since then I have been having an outbreak every 2 weeks. Its getting on my nerves and its always so painful. I hate telling my husband because i know he feels horrible about it. I just hate that I have it, that he gave it to me, that i have to deal with these painful bumps while im pregnant. I have medication for it but it doesnt help much it seems like. I get so upset about it still that i just want to cry and not even talk to my husbamd since he did this to me and his outbreaks are never as bad or as painful as mine.