Vent :/

Hi everyone :)

Still fairly new to Glow and just wanted to express how I am feeling right now, with some hope of not so much asking for advice, just venting :(

This is what I am coping with right now:

•Moving back to partners parents place

•Quitting my current job whilst still looking for another

•Moody, sore BF after tooth being removed yesterday

•Own sore teeth (one removed friday, another next Friday)

•Feeling generally alot more sensitive than normal

TTC 1.5months. Waiting for a period to start (or hopefully not).

My situation at the moment is my BF and I have been together 15 months, living together and we also work together as house cleaners so we dont spend much time apart but this doesnt put much pressure on our relationship.

We are moving back to his mothers house (who I love to death), due to wanting to save money to move mid next year, and feel a little more stable, being able to do the things we want to and not living in basically poverty. The stress of packing has me overwhelmed. The stress of even looking at the dishes that were in the sink was making me depressed, mainly because I spend every day cleaning other peoples houses, and I cant cope with my own mess at home. I found the motivation to do it, but feeling really awful right now.

I am currently looking for another job, as I injured my back and need to find a less labour intensive position....yeah right...the work is there but I am having no luck.

Im feeling very overwhelmed by everything and all my emotions are running high, I assume partially due to my period coming...but that also has me nervous, scared, excited, petrified.

My brain feels like a mess and I really dont know how Im going to cope over the next few weeks.

My sleep patterns are completely out of whack, im always exhausted, almost feeling run down/sick but not showing any symptoms of actual sickness.

I want to be pregnant, but I dont at the same time, and please understand, I know people struggle to conceive and I am not trying to offend anyone, but the life I have right now, I dont know if im ready to give up this life yet, but I also know I am ready to make a change, to make things better, and its something I want but I am scared.

End rant- feel much better getting some things off my chest that I cant speak to anyone about