I don't know if this is best for me but I don't have anyone around close to me I want to talk about it & if I do it takes everything in me to hold back the tears. I found out I was pregnant on 4/22 and was beyond excited. I tried my hardest not to be excited because I've been down this road more times then I wish. I'm also with a new man after my divorce and was hoping this one would stick. All of my other miscarriages happened within the 5/6 week mark. Because I was high risk I've had an ultrasound abdominal and transvaginal every week to week and a half. My 5 & 6 week ultrasound both looked perfect the doctors said and after my 6 week my doctor wanted me to wait till I was almost 8 weeks so they could hear a heartbeat. At my 6 week US they saw cardiac activity just no heartbeat. This Tuesday I went in for my 8 week one and the tech did an abdominal US then went to get the doctor for the transvaginal one. I knew at that point that something wasn't right but obviously I didn't want to put anything negative out there. The doctor came in and immediately just said sorry and went on to say the baby had no heartbeat or cardiac activity & that it was only measuring around 7w. My heart sunk. For some reason this time I felt that this was going to be it. I had horrible pregnancy symptoms which now I noticed a lil after my 7w Us had calmed down a lot & was stupidly thinking maybe I was over the jump of the horrendous morning sickness or all day sickness in my case. I feel beyond guilty for any complaint I had been doing bout feeling miserable w/ the sickness, the unexplained horrible allergies, the random itching everywhere and everything else. If I could go back I wouldn't have ever complained at all. I remember my doctor saying that it was good I had strong symptoms and I should've been more thankful. The place I went for my 8w US was just very cold & straight to the point which I guess is there job. It's just hard when you hear such devastating news and the doctors just says I'm sorry but the baby has died and I'll text you OB to go over your options. My amazing OB doctor called the very next morning and asked me what I wanted to do if I wanted to do this naturally or not. He highly recommended a D&E because I did have a su chorionic hemmorage and was worried because of complications I've had that waiting and doing it naturally could cause issues. Me personally just wanted this horrible experience to be over. Ive been feeling like I'm such a cold person but I just don't think mentally I could deal w/ just waiting and the hospital said it could take up to 6w for my body to finally realize that the baby had passed. At this point I don't know how to feel. At times I feel like I'm being a baby but at other times I feel like I'm holding it in too much. I was also worked where my SO stood w/ wanting to try. This last one was a total surprise so neither of us were really expecting it. Which wasn't a bad thing at all. After hearing the news all I could think bout was when could we try again but I needed know where he stood. SO wants to try ASAP. The doctor said whenever we were ready we could start. Obviously we've gotta wait bout 10 days but after that I think this time around were gonna actually try. I started temping today even tho I knew my temps were still gonna be high and all over the place till all the hormones are gone. Has anyone else had a missed miscarriage and then a D&E and gone on to get pregnant. Have you waited till your next cycle or did you feel mentally you were ready. I know some doctors say your more fertile after a D&E cus your body thinks it's delivered and is confused and will send out eggs soon. My doctor said your period and ovulating after a D&E don't have anything in common and can ovulate either right away or it can take time. They mainly tell you to wait for dating the next pregnancy and to just make sure you get. A negative hpt so you don't get false hope. Also to anyone whose had a D&E I'm a lil worried because I'm not really bleeding at all just some minor spotting. I don't know if that normal and will eventually start to bleed or what.