Testing in the morning

I so need the emotional support right now. 11 dpo. Testing with fmu in the morning. I'm so nervous. If it fails this time it will be month 8 for me. Truth is I'm losing hope. I'll test in the morning and if its negative I'll test on my period day if i don't get it by then. Life is just so harsh sometimes. We just listed our house for sale and there is 0% interest by buyers right now. And on top of that I've been jobless for the last 6 months as I was laid off and I can't get pregnant. This is probably the worst year of my life. I have nothing to look forward besides my little family. It's so easy to lose hope and so hard to have faith.