How can I stop trying and not caring to get pregnant anymore?

It's hard period. It's been over a year for me and it's just hard. My ob gyn said there shouldn't be anything wrong with me but told me to go see a specialist but it's pricey where I am so I'm saving up. So I'm still trying. It's been really stressful but it's hard not to care or just forget about it whenever you see something that reminds you of a baby 😔