When do mc moms start feeling comfortable?

So I have had 2 miscarriages in the last year. We have tried to conceive for 6 years. Is there a point in time you start feeling comfortable or confident in your pregnancy. I thought I would feel more at ease after I hit second trimester (I'm 14eeks + 4days) but I still don't. People have been talking about baby registeries and I can't bring myself to do it. I feel like every day I don't see blood is a miracle and I constantly catch myself saying "if baby comes". 
I guess my question is, for other moms who have gone through multiple miscarriages and spent years ttc, at what point did you let yourself become excited about your pregnancy and worry less? At what point did it begin to feel real, like the baby is actually going to stay alive and be born? 
Thank you!