The Aftermath

I finally had sex for the first time in a year and a half. I was raped about two years ago and didn't have sex after. Yesterday I finally had sex and I enjoyed myself for the most part. He wore a condom but it fell off in me and he came in me. I immediately started balling my eyes out after He told me. When I was raped (by my boyfriend at the time) he didn't wear a condom and he came in me. I went to the hospital 6 days later despite what I wanted. I just wanted to be left a lone but my parents made me go get tested and the doctors gave me meds. Well last night after sex I went and got a Plan B pill. I read the side effects so I understand why I'm feeling the way I do physically but I just wish I understood the emotions and had someone who could relate and talk to me about what it was like when they finally had sex again after being raped or assaulted. I feel awful..