No best friend...

Miki
I can't keep a best friend. 😔of course, I see my boyfriend as my best friend❤️, but I kinda wish i had a girl best friend or just another close guy friend(usually i got along better with guys lol)  Like, I think sometimes my emotions get the best of me all the time, so smallish things, or things that aren't a big deal to other people, are a big deal for me. So maybe thats why.. Idk. It just seems like I'll start getting close to someone(as a friend) and then it just sort of sizzles down or I dont like parts of them or vice versa. Or they do something that makes me mad or upset. I dont really have a best friend. Or any close friend for that matter. 
And its weird cuz my best friend from 7th to like 11th grade began talking again about a year ago and we sorta picked up where we left off. But it still doesnt feel the same. :/ It makes me kinda sad.. 😢