Sister in-law pregnant

Michelle • Married for 3 years and TTC our first little one
My husband and I have been trying to conceive for 10 months and I have been feeling really deflated after being disappointed month after month. I got a terrible UTI during my latest fertile week so this this month was a wash. We decided to have a beach weekend for MDW to clear my head and reboot. And last night my husband's brother called to announce that they were pregnant with their first. I want to be happy for them but I came home and cried in the shower. I didn't want my husband to see me cry and ruin the happy moment for them. The worst part is my SIL has never even been excited at the idea of having a baby while for me it is all I've ever wanted. Just wanted to get some encouragement from women who know how I feel. I feel like my husband doesn't understand how painful this is.