Not enough anymore?

I am not one for getting down and out but it's getting hard. No one said marriage was easy and I 100%believe them. 

This week I went out of town with my family (after a long talk with him and him telling me to go) and my husband decided to share inappropriate photos to a coworker once he was drunk. Well yesterday he was fired for it, and he came home and cried and said he was sorry and that he made a stupid mistake. I told him at the start of our relationship that I don't tolerate cheating, lying or abuse. Well I didn't get mad...I didn't feel anything really. Maybe it was because he was crying and begging me not to hate him. Maybe it's because he was offering marriage counseling and telling me he loved me. 

He didn't have an affair, he didn't sleep with anyone, but he broke my trust. My father was cheated on and hurt for 10years I know what it does to people 

Well, I just don't feel like I am enough anymore. I'm not the 19 year old girl who is wearing perfect makeup, stretch mark less and weighs 160lbs.  Now I'm a mom, who goes to school and work full time. I'm a woman who doesn't have time to put my makeup on everyday and look absolutely perfect. Stress and life has me gaining weight and I am tired. It just seems like he is pulling away farther and farther away. Here is to me going home tonight and having a tough conversation! 

Maybe marriage counseling is good for us. 

I just needed to say something...

End rant.