I will be shocked if this baby keeps growing. UPDATE!

So I am 6w 2 d today with pretty much zero symptoms, except for pretty consistent light cramping.

My blood HCG was 10,000 today and my doctor sent to me get a viability ultrasound. Well, there was no embryo seen on the scan, just the gestational sack.

They told me to come back in a week to double check. I don't want to have another scan until I am at least 8 weeks (if I don't miscarry by then) but I also am going to get another HCG done next Tuesday, in 6 days from today ( I would have done it in 72 hours but it would be Saturday and no private lab is open then).

For some reason I think this is it. I don't even know how I feel right now.

This would be my second pregnancy and second miscarriage. During my first, I started bleeding at 6w2d (like I am right now) and all the tissue passed at 6w4d. No d&c was needed - my body got rid of it all by itself. We were devastated and completely unprepared for this, it was horrible.

This time I am just numb. For some reason I don't even have a shred of hope. I know when I ovulated, I know when we conceived so I am sure about my dates. I know it is still pretty early but I don't have hope any more.

Lots of moms here heat and see a heartbeat at this time. I didn't even see a baby.

Sorry ladies, just wanted to share with you...

UPDATE

So I got my results from LabCorp today - Tuesday afternoon ( June 7, 2016) my progesterone was 21.5 and my HCG went up to 36,400. My first HCG was done 6 days prior, and it was 10.000. According my logic and calculations, my hcg was supposed to be around 40,000 by Tuesday. I figured, 36,400 is close enough for me to hope for the better.

But it just can't be all nice and worry free, can it? The same Tuesday I had my blood drawn for HCG ( 2 days ago) I noticed some pinkinsh-brown spotting on my underwear. Same repeated yesterday, very little - nothing when I wipe, just on the underwear at the end of the day. Well, it continued today. After having to go through a miscarriage, I know that this "spotting" is quite different from my last but tomorrow I will probably still call my OB.

I do have cramps but they aren't strong.

My second US is next Wednesday, June 15. OB on call in my clinic wanted me to have one this upcoming Friday but I decided to wait. I don't want to have my heart broken again just yet - and if the baby is alive and doing good, it's not like I will completely stop worrying :)

I let my guard down and allowed myself to get way too hopeful. Now I am scared to fall again.

Thank you all who have supported me. It means the world.