Overcoming my PPD...
I finally feel that I am overcoming my postpartum depression!
Back story:
*I've never suffered from any type of anxiety or depression before my pregnancy.
I had major complications after I delivered my son back in February. Long story short, completely normal pregnancy and labor. Once my doctor delivered my placenta and stitched me, my body continued to bleed. She quickly realized it was my uterus and it was not contracting back down. Part of my placenta had grown into my uterus and it was causing tons of bleeding. Went into surgery to get a DNC to clean it all out but that's when things took a turn for the worst. My uterus would not contract. It continued to bleed and I started to bleed out. I lost 1/3 of my total blood volume and my doctor made a decision to try to insert a balloon type instrument into my stomach to put pressure on my uterus to make it contact instead of giving me a hysterectomy. The balloon was successful and after 24 hour and being in the ICU, my uterus was contracting back down. With all of that to deal with along with bringing home a new baby, things were tough.
I don't like taking medication at all. I denied pain killers and any other medicine in the hospital and after I got home. With that being said, I tried insanely hard to overcome my depression naturally. Walking, anything outdoors, coloring, driving, stretching, scrap booking...I was determined to face it head on and overcome it. I just couldn't. I couldn't overcome it without medication, and that's ok! It took a lot of thought and frustration, but I finally gave in and it was the best decision I made. I have been on my antidepressant for 2 months now and I feel so incredibly better. I have to remind myself that it is a chemical imbalance in your brain and sometimes you just need help.
As of today, it was my LAST doctors appointment! I have been seeing my doctor every single week since Feb because of this. Over THREE months! I finally went in there and told her I'm doing great and she agreed. I didn't have to make an appointment for next week and I walked out with such pride. I am so happy with myself and relieved. I'm so thankful I have such a great doctor and the support from my husband. Talk about a lot of emotions! I didn't realize how depressed I truly was and this unfortunately happens to so many women and they don't speak up about it and don't get the help they need. I am so proud, humbled, relieved, happy, and so much more that I was able to tell my doctor that I'm doing so much better. This feels so wonderful to overcome this, even though I needed medication to help me.
Please, if you have depression/anxiety, talk to your doctor. That's what they are there for!
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