Lost my baby

Im heartbroken. I would have been 13 weeks today. I found out that when i took my test and found out i was 8 weeks pregnant, i had already lost my baby. So the whole time i was celebrating and excited and changing my life my little olive was gone. I know ots not right to think this way but i cant help it. I see my belly pictures and i cant even look at them without sadness and anger. It wasnt even real and it kills me.

Im literally losing my shit. I can't deal with this anymore. I dont know what to do anymore. I cant keep my anxiety under control... my chest is hurting all the time.

I just am lost and i dont know how to get through this.

Sorry for ranting i needed to get that out.