I envy all of you that had a normal birth and got to take their baby home. I was so careful throughout my pregnancy to not do anything I'm not supposed to yet my baby still was born with problems. He was born with paralyzed vocal cords and has to get a tracheostomy to be able to breathe. I won't be able to hear his little coos and cries anymore. This is the hardest thing I've ever gone through but I know it could be much worse and I thank god for giving me the gift of my beautiful baby. Just having a hard time dealing with all of this 💔