I am young and I shouldn't be worrying about guys in general because I have a future ahead of me, but when you know you're in love with someone it never truly goes away.. I have been dating my current boyfriend for 11 months now, we have had hundreds of fights, we have almost broken up 3 times, he hates my mothers, but he loves the rest of my family. My mother has been the only one to raise me since I was 5, & even when he met my dad he had a distinctive opinion about him. His family is absolutely amazing and treats me as if I am a daughter in law to them, they have given me way more than I could have ever asked for, but I feel as though I am stuck in a unhappy relationship that i keep forcing myself to be happy. My ex and I have kept a friendship ongoing throughout me and my boyfriends relationship, but my ex has a girlfriend as well so there is no type of intimacy happening. One night both of us were doing really bad in our relationships and happy to meet up and talk to each other as good friends. We ended up remembering a lot of memories we shared with one another (he was my first love and the guy I lost my virginity too). I felt that feeling again that I have never experienced with anyone else. There's something about us I can't leave behind. I feel stuck in a bubble not knowing if I should follow my heart or stick with my current boyfriend and hope nothing else bad happens.