5 years of trying and all I got wa a miscarriage in 2014 and an ectopic last june. It's been a year since ectopic and not once have I gotten pregnant. Hubby thinks I'm ok but I'm not. My brother has 4 kids and counting. But me I can't even hold a pregnancy. I feel less of a woman for not being able to give my husband a child. This sux. At times I wanna die. Sometimes I just zone out. Look at these young girls having babies they can't even support cuz they can't even support themselves. Me and hubby both have promising careers and I'm studying the history of science. I'm going for my pH d. Yet who will I share it with besides hubby? Our frustration makes us work long hours and we barely see each other only at night. Being around each other sometimes is a constant reminder of what we don't have. A family. Maybe he deserves someone better than me who can give him a family. He tells me he loves me and wants no one else bit there has been times he kissed my belly while praying to the most high to please give us a baby. Never happened. I'm thinking of filing a divorce and disappearing so he can move on and have a life with someone who can give him what he wants. Smh. I hate my life